I guess I should start by saying that I became a Christian after I was married. My husband was and never has been the least bit antagonistic about my conversion, and even agreed to let me take our daughter to church. He just didn’t want to be a part of it.
Our text for today includes Matthew 22:36-39 which states “Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law? And He said to them, ‘You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the great and first commandment. And the second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’” (ESV)
It’s funny what God will use to speak truth into our lives. One day, my husband pointed out that I was not going to church very much. Rather than listening to him, my first response was “who exactly do you think you are? I am the one who is a Christian and you are the one who is NOT, so don’t even dare talk to me about this!” Righteous indignation. It’s a spiritual gift. His reply to me was “For someone who claims to be a Christian and active in church, YOU ARE NEVER THERE.” Ouch. Truer words were never spoken. I was using my Christianity like a badge, but coming up short in the actual practice of gathering together with fellow believers and growing in my faith. I was far from loving God with all my heart, all my soul and all my mind.
I needed the wake-up call then as I need it now sometimes. Instead of treating God like a magical genie who will pour into my life when I need him to, relationship is a two way street that I need to engage in and fully participate in. Everyone is in different seasons of life and so this relationship will look different to all of us at different times. Some of us have time to read and study every day. For others, getting through the day with young ones at home or working two jobs or whatever the situation is will not have that much time. I hope that we all have SOME time. Even if it is only a minute in the bathroom to close your eyes and breathe a prayer and think about one verse. Here is the miracle. God can meet you in the bathroom for a minute just as he can meet someone else in a comfy chair having a full on study session. He can meet you wherever you are, in whatever season of life you are in. And here is the super miracle. That one minute? He can multiply it to five minutes. The five minutes you bring? He can multiply it to fifteen. It just works that way. Bring what you have, and watch your love for the Lord grow.
Now, many years after the incident with my husband, I am so grateful that the journey with the Lord is indeed a journey, and that he can take the little that we bring him and fill us with such a longing to know Him more that it becomes insatiable.